Fear of Falling by S.L. Jennings

If you can read only one book the rest of your life, make it Fear of Falling.


"You don't have to be afraid of falling. Just close your eyes, let go, and know that I'll always be here with arms outstretched, ready to catch you." -Blain Jacobs



I can't remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn't bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I've run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn't run anymore.

​He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fiber of my being. It wasn't the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn't the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just...him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.

My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.

​"Don't worry," he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. "I've got you. I'll always catch you when you fall."

And just like that, Blaine had staked his claim on the untouched part of me that no living soul had ever moved. He had captured every fear, every reservation, and crushed them in the palm of his inked hand.


Abuse is real- verbal, emotional, physical and sexual. It takes place all around us; it doesn't discriminate against race or gender, wealth or poverty. It affects us all- those of us who've had to live through it, or watch it happen, even those of us who've only heard about it. We are all affected. We are all forever changed. 

This is not a story for the faint of heart; this is the story of one woman's very real struggle through a world against her, the people who hurt her, her real life demons and the people who showed her that every gray sky, no matter how dark, has a sun waiting to break through.
*This is a stand alone novel*



I have a new favorite author after finishing this work of fiction based on true life by S.L. Jennings. I was blessed to have recently won a copy of this book, so at my first opportunity I started to read this and could not put it down. I was doubly blessed because this book took me through a gambit of emotions. I started it laughing out loud. All I can say is the character CJ is a messed up hoot! At times I felt my heart and muscles tightening wanting to scoop this precious girl, Kami up and love her as a mother would. A lot of times I was in need of a cold shower with the images and actions of Blain Jacobs. I seriously want a Blain. I felt fun loving & childlike through the first date.  I was filled with overflowing pride for each accomplishment Kami rose to.  I was mad as hell with a father who should have been sent straight to Hell. And I cried from the depths of my soul for not only the story so expertly written but all the real life victims it portrays. Unfortunately, I know first hand.  Ms. Jennings wrote too close to the truth and gripped my soul.  I went through years of therapy to heal and finally separate myself from what was done to me as opposed to who I am and have won. But the last issue I've spent 29 years battling, came to light for me in the middle of last night with the conclusion of this marvelous book and I now understand I really am worth it. Thank you to S.L. Jennings for writing what too many people silently deal with in an entertaining, compelling way that finally set me free. Kami's thoughts vs. her actions were spot on.  I cannot shake one character of this story from my heart today, not even the father.  I'm wrecked...in a good way.

Fear of Falling